الفلم the bardo

نعم .. الحياة فلم... فلم فقلب فلم في قلب فلم

متل الملفوفة... غريب اسمها ملفوفة قبل ما تنلف

the bardo of samsara

the bardo is a transition 

between realms

between samsara and rebirthh

the 7 levels of existence are all bardos

the lower : cold hell... hot hell... hungry ghost... animal realm, 

the higher : human realm, angry gods and jealous gods 

human is the best rebirth because it's the only one that gives an opportunity of liberation 

from samsara.

but in the one lifetime I am aware of

this one , 

I experienced all the 7 realms ,
I jumped from bardo to another, I still do, 

sometimes I am a hungry ghost, unable to fill the void inside

sometimes I am in the cold hell of  unlove,
sometimes I am in the hot hell of anger

sometimes I am a mindless animal

sometimes, I am a mindful human

I've been in the realms of the gods , 

i struggle with the lower realms

i keep falling there but manage to drag myself out

i hope i can always bring myself back to being human   

with ease and joy 

successfully

i also experienced death and rebirth in this lifetime, in this body,

this body isnt the same as the one i came in

my voice isnt the same

my size is much bigger
the difference is big

is that food?

or is that me?

who is me?

i watched myself die many many times in this life

jumped from one life to another

like there's no tomorrow

because if there is no tomorrow

we'd do the wildest things

what is the wildest thing?

beginnings?

change?

endings?

so the heartache bardo 

when will that movie finish?

it is not the most pleasant

but maybe  because i wish to stay in the human realm

i get this heart training

stretching

i have a lot to learn about love and compassion

If I want to stay human

because "human" means compassion

and love is the answer

bla bla bla .....

بس في النهاية
السؤال اللي بيطرح نفسه
 ايمتي رح يتوقف الالم؟
هل رح يتوقف الالم؟

شو لزومه؟
اجباري؟
اختياري؟

you cant live all your lives at the same time, one has to go to make room for another
you wont get reborn if you don't die first
die
die
DIE
enough suffering already