Celebrating my anniversary
Three years I’ve been in 'your' land
my new 'home'
Have you ever been in dream?
where you know it's a dream
and whatever happens doesn’t make a difference
cause you'll wake up and the dream will be over
beauty and fear and love is not real
just a dream
Have you ever found the magic lamp?
and rubbed it and got the genie
but you couldn’t think of anything to wish for
cause life has lost its contrast
cause nothing can revive your dead heart
Feels like thirty years
It's weird, the transformation
I watch myself live, and do things
like watching a soap opera on TV
I watch me make objects
and work and sleep
I sometimes feel sorry for that character
but I am mostly indifferent
Someone built a time machine
and I the adventurous wanted to test it out
the machine ran out of gas
I got stuck between two worlds
I shattered into 30 million pieces
they spread over the empty space
they float between the planets
aimless
feeding on patience
from music
and poetry
I carve my fingerprints on pieces of wood..
and I watch me...
Ottawa - 1999
