GeekyArtistArabWoman - Lubzi

The juice of my heart

I call myself Lubzi. I am from Palestine. I live there too
I am a blend of cultures, a salad of sounds, colors & words. I like to create. I love learning. I aspire to inspire. I seek freedom, harmony, peace and justice. I like to be a bridge between hearts and minds, between people from different cultures and backgrounds.
Here you'll find my theatre sound designs, audio art pieces, some of my writings and sketches & all kinds of crazy mixes and audio experiments that I do.

Saturday, October 4, 1997

Let’s celebrate my death

The new religion of the new world order.
I'll never follow.
The political correctness starring the God Uncle Sam.
I just cant follow.

the new religion has new 'ethics'
new definition of rights, new definition of humanity.
so flexible that you never know what it is.
is not human to kill a serial killer, it's human to kill 750000 Iraqi
children.
New definition of freedom : some have the freedom to be racists
as long as uncle Sam says it's OK.
If you're selfish then 'you're taking care of yourself'
If you try to protect your culture then you're being exclusive
If you defend Iraq then you're being inhuman.
If you oppress other people then you're being merciful
If you take a picture of a tree , the tree will ask you for copyright
If someone bashes you , then they are expressing their opinion!
If you defend yourself, then you're being a savage.
If you love your homeland , then you're a radical
If you are an Arab, then you're a terrorist.
It all depend who you are and who they are

I know I know, power makes the rules.
I know that my people are defeated.
I know that I have to resign.

I thought ruling systems don’t reflect people in the west.
I thought that they just don’t know enough, and that's why they support
those systems, I thought if they know things would be different.
Boy was I wrong.
The majority who support the aggression on Iraq don’t want to know, they
don’t want to listen, Canadians also, don’t want to listen. they lie to
their selves.

In life there are easy ways out, where people choose to be ignorant,
because if they don’t then they will have to do something.

Sometimes
I wish I could turn my Arabness off
I wish I could find the switch that would turn off my common sense and conscience.

I couldn’t!
but I resign.
I'm too sick not to

I wont write, I wont read.
I'll claim my illiteracy
I'll respect my alienation
I resign

You took my home. you deleted it from the map
not from my heart
you are taking my dignity
Go ahead,
I'm dead.
I wont feel anymore.
I resign.
I wont argue with you. there is no point.
My hope died. I don’t believe in your humanity,
I don’t believe in your fairness.
Bash me, tell all kinds of lies about me, I’m not here, I'm dead!
Kill my children, destroy my civilization, go ahead, I cant stop you!
Steal my home, change my history. I cant stop you!
You can rape me, but I’ll never bear your children,
you cant take my soul!
I'm already dead!

I'm still Arab, I am still Palestinian and will always be..
but I'm dead!
and I didn’t follow your new religion, and I didn’t forget my origin,
and I didn’t find the switch that will turn off my humanity.
and you have the power.
and I am dead
and it’s much better to be dead.

Ottawa - 1990-something