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Yes... beautiful snow, clean, fluffy , gently falling, white ma a7lah
Yes snow , here in Victoria !!
2nd time we get real snow since I moved here 5 years ago.
Reminded me of Ottawa w ayyam Ottawa. I actually missed the snow.
This weekend is good. I managed to get at least 3/4 of what I have decided to do which is not bad at all.  Dick -(what a name , eh?)� the play director really liked the music I compiled for the play.. he even suggested that at the end of the play maybe we can make copies and give them to the cast as souvenirs. I thought that is a cool idea. I was flattered
Today I had a massage .. my God so much pain is stored all over my muscles. The therapist was really good and deep. spiritual and grounded. She told me about the emotions stored in the body - I actually asked her first - basically in the shoulders and upper back .. there is anger, in the lower back , financial fear.. no wonder . We had a very important conversation. I felt she was reading my mind. I am in pain because I am not acting with integrity, that is the truth. I am not being who i need to be or doing what i need to do, fear is holding me back . I told her sometimes i feel like i sold my soul to the corporation again, I am a mental prostitute. selling my brain to the highest bidder.
she also told me that the more i think of what i dont want to the more it happens and she told me to check out the movie : the secret
wow.. she told me exactly what i needed to hear , we talked about my audio engineering passion. I know this is what i need to do . how and when is the question.
I did some serious job hunting today , fixed up a killer resume , updated my training record and send my resume to 3 recruiters that have contacted me . 2 of them have interesting positions and they are in the bay area and here. i am of course still all over the place i know. but i will get more together, i see it hapening, i am meditating now, doing visualization, getting my stuff done, cooking for myself, keeping up with my chores basically.. that is good. shatra.
I want to follow the path of my least resistance. Ma biddi adall akhbout rassi bil7eit. do things the right time instead of freaking out and forcing my mind over my head. i want to be one, mind, heart and soul.
I want to see 'the sercet' . I didnt find it on limewire to download. I didnt find it in the video store next to my place either. I decided i will pay 5 USD and see it online. the trailer is mighty impressive. i cant wait,. it is now 4:35 am ya3ni kteer mit2akhkher and the movie is 90 minutes long. I dont want to fall asleep during the show... yalla a7sanlee arou7 anaam.
fi ishi 3ajeeb beseerli , kul ma baaji anaam bajoou3, I think my body is mixing up my needs. when i'm sleepy i go hungry, when i am sad i become hungry, when i am hungry i become sad... strange stuff .. wallahi ana marrat kteer ba7ayyirni...
you know what is funny , people in the street where in a very good mood , people were smilling and saying hi :) . i think the new fresh snow has a way of bringing out the happy children in all of us (or most of us)�